I feel like I need to vent but I don't want sympathy or someone feeling bad, or sorry for me. So I come here. Coming here is rare for me so I'm sure it's even rarer for someone to find my rant but I going get it out.
I feel like I just don't fit into life at all. I have friends, a few good ones, some okay ones, and plenty of terrible ones. Up until the last year I've at least felt comfortable around my two best friends. That is no more. I just don't feel like I even fit in with them which is no surprise because we're so different. Time can't keep friendships going.
Other friends, co worker friends, and that crowd I just feel ousted in. They let me hang around but there is just that feeling like the don't accept me for who I am. These isn't much to me. I just pretty much exist to work, and take care of my son.
Girls... I am so picky, and so happy being alone and not answering to one that I think that I'm done with girls... Maybe even people. I honestly can say that if I was to never see another person I would be okay with that.
Motivation. I have no motivations other than taking care of Nate. That's one thing I know I'm doing right, and probably the only reason I keep pushing along, and going.
Insomnia. It has been hell the last few months. I can barely sleep. I just stay up till I can't keep my eyes open. Last night I was so exhausted by the time I went to lay down I forgot to take my contacts out. I never do that.
Work... Work is that I wish it was better, but it sure the hell isn't bad. Good people. Decent Pay... Just wish I enjoyed it more since I'm good at it.
Well that's all I got other than... Why chase if they don't run...
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